Ok so my friend and I finally did weed for the first time since I was about 16 years old. Well, it was her first time ever and she wanted to do it for some odd reason so I said that I would. Kind of strange since she just graduated and works as a trader for Prudential; she was clean all her life and once she gets out of college she wants to do shit like this? lol
Anyway, I hate weed and do not understand why people do this crap. We smoked the stuff yesterday and this was the first time that it came in a glass jar and looked like a pink flower. I'll try to search for a pic online to show you guys what it looked like; I certainly do not remember weed looking like this when I was in high school. Today I feel like shit for doing it with a ton of sad feelings running through my mind. Not only that but I find myself staring at objects for long periods of time. I can see why long term smokers tend to be depressed and shit, I feel down for no apparent reason. When I mean sad feelings I'm talking about "feeling ashamed" that I did drugs.....etc.
While high in my room we both pretty much forgot what was going on. She kept asking me all these weird questions that made me feel uncomfortable and I didn't know what to say, for example: "Kamil, do you love me?" "Kamil do you like me?". It was the worst feeling ever and I have never been so uncomfortable.
Well, I really do not understand why people smoke weed. I'm a fairly strong person and it still got in my head afterwards so I cannot fathom the regular depressed people doing this.
I need to get out of the house now or I'm going to lose my mind. By the way, it looked just like this but was dry: